I’m actually content with my grades! I mean, sure I could have done better in some areas, but I did so much better than last semester. I can only go up from here and I hope to get them way up. I’m not taking on too much next semester so I hope I can do even better and get my GPA way up.

Thank God I’ll be taking a short break from chemistry because I’m slightly over it and want to learn biology instead.

Next semester means:

• Anthropology 201 [G] Art and Society
• Biology 106 [B] Organismal Biology
• Math 106 [-] College Algebra
• Psychology 333 [-] Abnormal Psychology
• Psychology 361 [S] Principals of Developmental Psychology

The reason why I’m taking college algebra instead of calculus was because when I took calc first semester, I fucked up and didn’t understand anything. The things I learned in pre-calc didn’t even prepare me for what I learned in calc. So I asked my advisor if it was okay to take an easier math class for me to relearn concepts that didn’t learn or that I forgot. I feel like this math move would benefit me as I catch up with my math so I can also continue on with chemistry. I hope that taking these “preparation” courses for calculus will help. Too bad college made me hate math.

Well. This first year of college went by super quick. Now I’m going to be a sophomore. So crazy! I hope to do better and continue to grow better.

My mom said it was okay to get a juicer and blender for my apartment next semester! You know what that meaaaaans?

Healthy eating! Duh!

I learned that juicing fruits and vegetables are way healthier than eating them in a salad, or cooking them with something or having them as a side dish. I mean for some things. The healthiest or most beneficial parts of the fruits and vegetables are usually the parts we don’t eat.

SO! I’m going to try eating way healthier than I do now and I cannot wait to move into my apartment with people I truly enjoy being with :)

Fuck Chemistry. I swear, it will be the death of me. Ugh, I wish you Biology majors didn’t need to take 3 chemistry courses >_> Irking. I loved high school chemistry! Haha, when it was easy…shit.

Fuck it oh well. I’m retaking chemistry 105 and I still hate it the second time around! Fuck, how will I EVER survive 106? Or organic chemistry! Why can’t I just learn biology already! >.>

Piss me off.

Whatever, I’ll just stick through it for the next couple semesters. Then I’ll finally say goodbye to this death trap and hello to heaven (bio).

Lol, watch me hate my major later on. Ugggghhh! I hate school.

I can’t fucking believe I pay $30,405 this year. Thank fucking God I’m not living on campus next year.

FUCK THAT.

It’s great to meet new friends but after it’s just so fucking expensive. Thank goodness my financial aid covers most of it.

For all you seniors: get the load of scholarships. It’ll help.

I think I wanna double major in both Biology and Interior Design and minor in Architecture. I always felt like the “artsy” type. Make my own blueprints, design homes/rooms/whatever, and build shit.

I need to figure out if I need to take more math classes or not. If I don’t, and I get to take the classes I want, I’ll be sitting with 17 credits. Damn. That’s like one class more from this year because I have 14 credits right now.

BUT! I find it so stupid that I’m a fucking Biology major and my orientation advisor didn’t even put me in Biology this year! Fuck. Whatever, if anything I’m doubling up on sciences cos I want to take Biology! Frick.

Anyways I’m about to make a video :)

I ain’t gonna lie, but I’m not homesick the slightest bit right now. My reason? Well, what’s there to be homesick about? Yeah, I have my family, my friends, and my lover back home. But it’s because me going to college here, IS FOR ME. Not for them.

I made a choice. I could go to college back home or go to the mainland. If I knew I was going to be homesick and not stick it out in the mainland, I would’ve stayed. But I didn’t. I wanted to come here. I wanted to make that change. I’m doing this for me, not for my parents but me.

I put my mindset in a mode in which I am in control of my feelings. I don’t want to feel homesick because that’ll just make me want to come home. And I don’t want to come home at all. Why again? Because. I’m going to own up to my choices. There’s no backing out now for me. For me? The only time I’m going back home is when I have a degree.

Homesickness is mind over matter. If you know you want to do this, if you know that this will benefit you, and if you know you’re doing this for yourself and not anybody else, then guess what? It’s mind over matter.

So, it’s over. Just like that.

Concert.

Done. Finito.

I swear, it feels like yesterday I came home from WA to catch up and learn new choreo, formations, and basically get into the mode of concert. I can’t believe that I’m done. 7 years with the studio as a classtaker to performing company member, over. I’m still in shock. I can’t believe I’m done.

I swear that last and final finale hit me hard. Everyone cheering, their faces, the passion, the joy, excitement, ah! Everything! Was just so, hard for me to see. I felt the swell in my heart and tears coming to my eyes. I needed to suck it up till we finished. And guess what? When we finished, and the curtain came down for the last time, I just let it out. It sucks knowing I’m leaving the best people I’ve ever met. It sucks knowing that this is it, I’m not in company anymore. It just sucks.

I probably cried way too many times in the past 2 weeks.

Leaving the Studio is probably one of the hardest things. I swear, I spent almost half my life dancing with the people who’ve grown with me as practically my brothers and sisters. My extended family.

If there’s one thing I’m going to miss about Hawaii, is the people.

I can’t believe it. As of today, Friday, I only have 11 more days left on the island. I don’t know what else to say really. I mean shoot. I swear, the 8 days flew by so fast. I was just at 19! I swear. I can’t believe it. I’m leaving soon…